I'm Back!

I can't believe how much time has slipped by. I ended up taking last week off from work... kind of. I realized I would loose the vacation time AND was feeling burnt out and at a point in time where I needed to take evaluation of things and try to play catch up.



Needless to say, I feel even further behind and the tangled mess of my life is nowhere closer to being untangled. However, the break did give me a chance to realize that even though tangled, a mess can still be beautiful in its own right. That sounds corny, but basically, being in chaos while I love order has unsettled me and I had lost my grounding, so am starting to readjust.



What in God's name has happened to her you ask. Well, that's just it, everything and not much. Basically I realized work has been taking a lot more out me than I realized and always will, so am working on boundaries there. Also the whole financial side of things have not been going well for me - working for a non-profit while paying off student loans and having a bloody *&^%^ house that won't sell and is costing me a fortune. And then of course there is the issue of unfinished business in my life as well as the eternal ticking clock - wanting to find a mate and settle down to start a family.



So, the good news is, I've arranged a meeting to discuss work with my boss and try to figure out a healthier work environment (and not just for me), I have a name of a doctor (ironically recommended by my boss) that I want to see about managing my stress and personal issues, my house is about to be sold (fingers crossed) so will at least have a concrete amount of debt to start paying off instead of an endless black hole sucking my meager earnings, and I've decided to (I think) take the plunge into online dating and just started the survey for eharmony.com at lunch today.



Who knows how things well work out, but at least I have the apperance of being back in control of my life. So although not completely fixed the week was not a complete loss- which I at first thought it was as I didnn't feel like I was getting anything accomplished.



The only concrete things that I got accomplished last week was knitting! I even took pictures but still have to download them to the computer. I now have my favorite sweater which is becoming my super favorite sweater as I get more and more compliments. So hopefully I'll get my act together and load some knitting pics finally - I have quite a few sweaters and... well it's just sweaters I have been working on - three successes and one failure, not such a bad ratio. So on that note I will leave you while thanking all of you who have supported me through this rough patch in my life - got to love being in ones 30s!