Home Sweet Home

So I'm writing this down so that I can come back in a years time (or so) and see how things have changed.  I know things will work out but man am I stressing.  I don't have a timeline but the clock is ticking on when I will have to move.  When I was looking for an apartment all those years ago the big challenge was figuring out where I wanted to look not knowing the towns and neighborhoods being a newbie to the state.

Now, there are no apartments.  What happened?  I guess it was the housing market crash.  I vaguely remember hearing on the news that there are a lot more renters now.  Didn't worry me as I was comfy, nestled into my sweet digs.  Now, I'd kill for any of the apartments I looked at before settling on this one. 

And then there is the housing market.  At least there are some of houses on the market.  But living in a big metropolotin area means the prices aren't cheap.  I could afford the mortgage/taxes/insurance on a bunch of nice places, but it's the downpayment, that is the kicker.  I've done the math forwards and backwards, and nothing.

The thing that I'm stresing about is that I have no plan, no back-up plan, nothing.  Initially I thought, find a new apartment, won't be as nice, but that's ok.  This would be my back-up plan as I look into purchaing a place.  I've run a ton of scenarios and now I wonder, how do people afford to live in this city.  I know it will all work out, just like it has in the past, but I feel like any of my options is moving me downwards and backwards.  Frustrating.  Little did I know how much I was taking for granted my little home sweet home.